a letter to my hardest goodbye ♡

Hi, so yeah, this is pretty much a closure letter to my hardest goodbye. The hardest goodbye after all these years. Someone I loved for so many years, and I will always love this person for his heart. Though we may not be destined for each other, I will always be grateful to have known him. It hurts when you really want something to happen, but when God does not allow it to happen, you should know that it is a protection for the unknown future. After all, God's plan is the greatest of all. Why a closure letter for him? We have weeks left before we finally enter a brand new year. A lot of painful things happened this year, but this one truly breaks my heart. I never thought I would have to finally close the chapters of him in my life. After years of loving this guy, I had to choose myself and my own happiness. It hurts more when you know that this will be the last time. Before this year, I knew he would have open arms for me no matter how long we grew apart from each other. The road somehow always leads me back to him, but this time, I know this is the very last time. I'm never going to have another place in his life, and knowing this truly breaks me. Do you know the feeling when you have to make the right decision for yourself, even though you still love this person, and you know that they're not the right one for you? It hurts me to the core. In life, you have to make sacrifices, and this is one of mine. Yes, I do love him and I always will. I hurt him so much to the point that I'm no longer welcomed in his life, but I want him to know that I definitely did not do it on purpose. It had to happen. I was very much torn between the choices I had to make. But of course, no one knows my honest intention and what I truly feel inside. I had a dream of him, and he seemed happy with the life he has now. Though it was just a dream, I wished I had the chance to see him again, even for the last time. Before I embrace 2026, I really just want a good and clean closure with him. I want a fresh start in 2026, and I hope to leave every painful thing that happened this year in 2025. I do not wish to bring any of those painful memories in 2026. Saying goodbye to him is the hardest thing I've ever done, since that was not what I truly wanted, but I had to. I hope he meets the right one and finds his own happiness. He has every right to let me be the villain in his story. I truly understand if he does not want to talk to me, ever. But if he understands the actual reason I decided things to be this way, I hope he would still, at the very least. I wish him truly the best of luck, and may he achieve everything he ever wanted, and may he be successful in whatever he does. I want him to be happy, even though I'm no longer by his side. If you're reading this, I want you to know that I will always love you no matter what. Please be happy, always ♡