1. Am I happy with where I'm at in life right now?
I am personally happy with how I see life right now. I must say that this year taught me so much about what truly matters in life. I mean, it's not my best year for sure, but I am definitely beyond grateful that I was able to again experience another whole year. I may not be in my prime right now, but I learn to accept that it is okay to be where I am at this very moment, as long as I'm happy internally.
2. What am I passionate about? What am I doing to pursue my passion?
I've always had a passion for streaming games or just making vlogs and being creative in video editing. I actually did it during PKP. I managed to upload a few videos on YouTube, but it was just for fun, and I never had the intention to commit to it, as it was a lot of work. But I had so much fun doing it, probably gonna post more in the future (only if I really feel like it).
3. Who & what things are weighing me down that I need to get rid of? How will I do it?
I'm pretty sure I already got rid of who and what things have been weighing me down this year. I'm actually happier now and so glad I survived the pain. I don't really like mentioning hurtful things that happened in the past, as I have already made peace with it. All I can say is that I feel so much better now, everything just feels lighter and warmer hehe
4. What do I need to forgive myself for?
I had a habit of blaming myself for things that didn't go my way, and I really just want to forgive myself for doing that. I made terrible decisions this year, and I would always blame myself for not thinking things through, but then I realized that everything happens for a reason. Hence, I made peace with it and learn to accept myself even more this year. I've come to realization that I really need to put myself first in the upcoming years. As long as I'm happy, I'll be fine with whatever.
5. When did I feel most alive this year? What was sacred about that moment?
I feel most alive when I'm with my family, especially my siblings. We would just hang out together and do the most random things, and we would laugh out loud over silly jokes. I very much enjoyed playing games with them. It's always such a blast to be around my siblings. I'm the happiest when I'm with my family, cats, and hamsters! Each moment I spend with them is sacred, and I will never trade them over anything in this world. I'm just grateful to be born in this family. Yes, we do have our ups and downs, but we always have each other's backs. I'm beyond grateful to be a part of my family.
6. What self-actions can I practice on a daily basis?
I've said this back in 2014 and 2016, but I'm gonna say it again, I should drink more water! I'm always so dehydrated, but I'm trying to consume more water, and I don't drink coffee as often, so I should be good. I used to get so addicted to coffee and would have it daily, but it somehow affected my health; therefore, I decided to cut caffeine.
7. What do I want to let go of?
I have let go of so many things this year, but it was indeed necessary to do so; hence, no regrets. One thing that I sorta wanna let go of would be how much I care for people. Caring is fine, but just not as much as I used to like before. I don't want to be walked over or trampled on anymore. I wanna let go of those bits of me, as some people truly don't deserve it.
8. What do I want to dedicate 2026 to?
Previously, I used to have a lot of hope for the upcoming years. But after experiencing this year, I would rather not. I don't have anyone or anything to dedicate 2026 to, but all I can say is that I'm just gonna go with the flow. This time, really just wanna see how things flow because when you have expectations, and it didn't turn out the way you expected, it hurts like hell.
9. What did I learn about myself in 2025?
I learned so much this year, especially how strong I was during those hurtful events. I remember how I would always ask people for their impression of me, and I got a lot of "you're a strong one", and when I heard these words, I didn't really get it because I never took myself as the strong one until this year happened. I finally realize how strong and resilient I have been throughout this year, and kudos to me for that! I'm happy that now I'm focusing more on how I truly feel. I'm finally choosing myself this time. I used to feel bad for choosing myself, but not this time, never again.
10. What did 2025 represent to me in my path?
I went through a lot this year. I did things out of my comfort zone. I tried a lot of new things this year, such as being an emcee for professional and formal events, and many more. I created so many memories with those who are still and no longer a part of my story. Honestly, this year started really well, and I was very happy in the first 3 to 4 months, but it just gradually decreased over the months. I was very much broken in the last 4 months, but Alhamdulillah, I'm feeling so much better now. There were times when I would just feel very empty inside and so lost. But I managed to find my way back to myself. I'm no longer in pain. I've accepted that things needed to happen the way they happened. I'm beyond thankful for the lessons I've learned this year. They definitely made me wiser, and now I'm focusing more on my upcoming journey and getting closer to Allah SWT.
So, these are my answers to the 10 questions I asked myself before 2026 arrives. Looking back at what I wrote in 2016 definitely proves how much I have evolved. It has been 9 years since I last answered these 10 questions. Time flies, huh? A lot has happened in these 9 long years, and I have developed gradually, but most importantly, I've learned so many things over these years, and I'm truly grateful for everything. Alhamdulillah ♡