2025 ♡

Hi there! It has been a while since I last posted here. My previous post was actually published on 16th September 2021, which is approximately 4 years, 2 months, and 12 days ago, as confirmed by Copilot. Back in 2021, I don't think Copilot, ChatGPT, or Gemini even existed. Based on my own research, ChatGPT was released on 30th November 2022. Copilot was released as Bing Chat on 7th February 2023, whereas Gemini was publicly launched on 8th February 2024. Time flies, huh? Anyway, I just feel like posting here again. I really missed expressing my feelings through writing. I remember that I would always come here whenever I felt depressed. I mean, you can kinda tell from my previous posts that I used this platform to just vent my feelings out, mostly during bad days. Recently, I've been reminiscing about the good old days. I just wish that I could turn back time, but I couldn't bear to go through certain things, and even if I could change them to be better, I probably wouldn't be able to reach this version of me if I had them all changed. Thanks to those experiences that molded me to be this version of my very own self. But enough about that. I'm here to talk about my 2025, what I've learned throughout the year. Honestly, 2025 started off well to the point where I feel scared that I might get hurt later. But I was indeed right about it because it was just too good to be true. I was tested at the beginning of the year. I honestly thought that someone whom I used to call the love of my life would end up being my life partner, but Allah's plan is far better than mine. I'm sure God heard things that I don't, and so I decided to call it quits. I knew it had to be done a long time ago, but I just don't have the guts to do it. Thanks to my years of experience in being resilient, I survived the pain. It was definitely not easy, especially when I had to pretend that I was fine, though I was literally dying inside. I wouldn't say that I'm fully healed, but I'm getting there, or just getting used to feeling that way. Well, that is just one of the bad chapters in my 2025 book. So many things happened this year that taught me so much about relationships, friendships, and life. I always care for people in ways that they don't even realize, and I got walked over and trampled on. Honestly, it was very painful because I never thought they would do such a thing. After all that I've done for them, even the little things, but this is what I get in return. Some would say that it was not even a big deal, but I don't care what anyone says because this is a very big deal to me. Ensuring that I'm surrounded by genuine and supportive people is a very big deal to me. Truthfully, it still hurts to this day because I swear I cared so much about those people. It might not seem like I do, but I always wished the best for them until I realized their true intentions towards me. After all, actions speak louder than any words ever could. I stopped, I closed that book. I wouldn't say that I cut ties, but I prefer to not be as close to them as I was before. The privileges they had with me are no longer available. I'm no longer the person I was before. I still choose kindness, though, but only for the ones who are truly deserving of it. Life is short, you gotta remove the pretentious ones. I got so many other things to think of, so this had to be removed instantly. But I'm grateful for everything that happened. It is definitely an eye-opener. Alhamdulillah for the lesson! No more next time, once should be enough. I could not summarize everything that happened this year in this one post, but I think this is good enough. If you reach the end of this post, I wanna say thank you for getting here. Thanks for spending your precious time reading my random life rants. Anyway, I'll see you when I see you (when I feel like posting one, I mean the previous post was like 4 years ago, so yeah, no promises)