Hi there, it is already the second month of 2026. Time flies, for sure. Many things have happened, and it is too hard to cope. I'm physically, emotionally and mentally tired. I had a lot to take care of, and I'm really just starting to doubt my capabilities, or maybe I wasnt feeling it. This year started off confusing to me in so many ways. I wondered if my choices felt right, even after everything that happened. I had a stir of feelings, and I would get overwhelmed most of the time, and the hardest thing was to keep a straight face when all I wanted to do was scream my lungs out. I mean, life isnt too bad honestly, and maybe I was just being overdramatic, but I'd like to think that whatever I feel is valid. Remember all the things I said goodbye to in 2026? I wish those things stayed with me, even after everything that happened. I learn so many things from what happened previously, but I'm sure things would've turned out differently if I had different reactions to it. Am I regretting those things? Not really, because everything happens for a reason and I'm sure there are bigger and better things coming ahead of me, but am I really and entirely ready for it? I guess I'll never know. A part of me would like to just sit still and do nothing. So tonight is malam nisfu syaaban, which is regarded as a night of mercy, forgiveness, and blessings. I prayed for so many things, and I truly wish my prayers are granted by Allah SWT. Some might want a lot of things in life but I only wish for a peaceful life and to be surrounded by my family and the people I love. This month is the month of Ramadan and I will definitely take this chance to be closer to Allah SWT.