It has been a year since I last update. My previous post was on the month of August in 2019. I guess I must've been really busy or literally depressed. As everyone is concerned, we all have been affected by COVID-19. A lot of things have changed. This pandemic has been affecting everyone from all around the world. It must have been hard but I'm sure most of you got through it. No matter how hard it was, please know that you got through it and that is all that matters. You've been strong physically, mentally and emotionally. Not gonna lie, it was hard for me as well, mostly mentally and emotionally. I went through so much last year. I had my ups and downs but mostly downs. I could say I had more tears than joy last year but I'm glad that phase was over. I kinda wanna summarize what happened last year that I almost reached rock bottom but I feel like there's a reason it was meant to be in the past and it shall remain that way. I dont think bringing it up now. Some things are better left unsaid. Those hard times were hard to swallow, but they sure became eye-opener for me. It made me realize a lot of things. I finally had my senses back and realize what I needed to do for myself. I'm actually glad that I went through to all that because I matured so much from what happened. I believe everything happens for a reason and I'm sure there's good to it. Sometimes, certain things may not happen accordingly the way we want them, but Allah's plans are far better than our dreams, therefore all we need is faith. Isnt it scary? To not know what is going to happen in the future but still, we choose to believe. Why do we choose to believe? Because without strength from Allah, we wouldnt even be able to go through our rough days in life. I feel like all we need is a little hope, that everything will eventually turn out great. I had so much in my mind. I want to do a lot of things. I want to be able to learn new things and try something new. Something that is out of my comfort zone. I just want to improve myself and make sure that I grow up as a better person. I want to have good thoughts even during bad days. Even though things may be different now, but I believe better days are coming. After rain comes a rainbow. Let's just have some faith and hope, shall we? May 2021 be a better year for all of us. A year of realization ❤