Blessed!

Hi there! How's life? Mine's great. I feel quite good actually. Things have been well for me recently. I admit I was a bit depressed before but I'm feeling so much better. So, 2016 will end real soon and I gotta say 2016 went from "not bad" to "pretty bad". I learnt a lot this year. Shit happens and lessons learned. They made me wiser, stronger and more matured than before. I am forever thankful to my creator for always reminding me everytime I was about to make wrong decisions. I am finally in my final semester. I can already feel the pressure. It has only been a week and we already have a lot to settle for. I need to do my very best for this final sem, I could not afford to let my parents down. They are my everything. Oh and I'm back to being heartless. Yes, a heartless potato. I'm not ready for any commitment. If you're reading this and wonder what happened, trust me, you dont want to know. When you put so much trust on someone and they break the trust, they keep you waiting, they dont want you to put high hopes on them because they feel pressured if you do so, they hurt you by ignoring you, they took your loyalty for granted, they play with your feelings, telling you they loved you but they never really did. This is what I've been thru. Trust me, it hurts so bad to the point where I no longer believe in love. I think I'm done. I'm really done. I'm done open up myself to people who dont deserve to know me that much. I hope you regret with decisions you have made. I hope kifarah hits you back in your face. I should've known this was coming before. Maybe I did, but because I believed in you so I stayed quiet and keep trusting you. Unfortunately, you showed me your true colors and gave up on me. Thankyou for doing so. Thankyou for showing me that you were never really worth it. You let go of someone who knew your flaws but still wants you, knew that she deserved someone better but still chooses you and willing to accept you but you pushed her away instead. You're a fool. Well, goodluck finding someone who is willing to accept you. You will never find another me. I can promise you that. If you think I still want you, you're dead wrong because I'm done. You dont know what you got until it's too late and I'm already gone. You may think she's easy but any girl is easy if they are in love, but once you crossed them wrong, you're no longer in their thoughts. I thank God for making me realize that I'm better off alone. Once you feel unappreciated by someone, let them go because you deserved something better. I pray to God to replace this sorrow with something beautiful. I believe good things will happen in the future. Thankyou for the memories. I just hope you learned something from what happened recently. Learn to solve problems, not just run from them. I'm moving on to something better. Dont ever say I was not there for you, dont ever say I didnt love you enough. I did all that and you took me for granted and this is what you get. I'm just glad that I'm finally on my own. Who says you need to mingle to be happy? Just as long as you set your mind that you're happy and redha no matter how hard things get, you will be at peace. It works all the time. I need to surround myself with positive vibes as it helps me get through every bad days. I am blessed. I'm happy that I still have my parents and I know some of us in this world dont. Seeing my parents happy will always be my favorite thing. I wish I could make them proud one day. I'm in a mission to achieve my dreams. You only have bad days, not a bad life so dont be sad. Chin up and move forward! Before you love others, be sure to love yourself first. I just wanna thank my fam for have always been there for me! I am forever grateful for having these bunch of wonderful people in my life. Plus, my short getaway was fun! Stay grateful, guys! xoxo