End of semester 3

Hi, there! So my two months (almost) of sem break has just begun. I'm so excited to be filling my free time by doing something productive! Hopefully. So, about the guy I used to post before this, guess what? He's finally on his own. Hm, a long story not worth to be shortened but one thing I know is, he's no longer a part of my life. He used to be the reason to the smile on my face, but now he's the reason it fades away. I still remember the old days, whenever I heard his name, I smiled and whenever I looked at him, I feel at ease and warm. But now, it hurt, every single time. Some people may think it was nothing and I was just overreacting but they don't know what it's like to wait for someone for almost 3 years, and the outcome was completely nothing. Hm, I just wish I have no feelings at all. I feel stupid, worthless and awful. I decided to be heartless until this wound of mine finally heals. I don't hate him, though I just wish him all the best in life. He used to be a part of my life anyway, so I'm good. Now, the only thing that matters is me. My happiness. He finally found his happiness and now it's my turn. Hm, what I want in life? I have a lot to accomplish. My dream, my future, my love life, everything. I did say that I wish I know who my future husband is, but a good friend of mine told me that what's the point of living this life if you already know what's waiting for you at the end of the road? Hm, she's right. Life is full of surprises and it's always okay to try new things and make mistakes because there's a saying that says "you may not have gone where you intended to go, but you'll end up where you need to be". So whatever the future has for me, I believe it was already written for me. I've done a lot of thinking before this and yes I'm still confused but you know what? I'm just gonna go for it. Plus, you only live once so live your life to the fullest. I just wanna be the happy, cheerful, dorky girl I used to be just like the old days. I miss the old me. Have fun, guys! xoxo