Every hello ends with goodbye

Hi there! How are you? I'm fine as usual. Things have been pretty smooth lately and I'm so grateful for that. Today is such a painful day. Why? because today is the day I let him go. And I'm starting to believe that this will be the last. I know I've said this quite a lot but trust me, no more after this. Nobody ever wants to say goodbye to their hellos but that's just how it is. Every hello ends with a goodbye. Even if two souls are together in this world, they will still say goodbye to each other. Maybe they stayed as one in this world, but death with tear them apart. No one said it was easy but no one ever said it will be this hard. I guess the only solution to my problem is to let him go and forget everything. How sad was it to have to say goodbye to the only person you want to be with? Hm, if only I could describe what I'm feeling. I'd rather just keep everything to myself. You dont always end up with your first love. First loves could either meant for you or to make you understand what love really means but they're not always meant for you. So this is how everything ends, huh? Hm so be it. I dont care anymore. I'd rather be heartless and emotionless. It's not because of him or other factors, I'm just not ready for any commitment. No more hoping, no more stressing myself out. NO MORE! I'll just be happy on my own.