Few more days ,_,

Hi guys, I'm back. So, few more days to go before my two months of sem break finally ends. Am I excited for this upcoming semester? Definitely not. I don't even feel like going back there. I'm gonna miss home so much hm. Anyways, so many things needed to get done before Saturday arrives. May Allah ease everything. Anyways, there is something that kinda bugs me lately. I hate how people lied about themselves just to get closer to someone. Lying to me won't get you in my zone, though. I hate the feeling of being betrayed by someone. I think I've had enough. Guess I've opened up way too much space for people to get to know me and now it's time for me to build those walls all over again. When you're being way too nice to certain people and they took you for granted. No more after this. I just feel like bringing back the old me. The dark and cold side of me. I think people would've understood me better. Oh and one more thing, I made it! I finally let him go. I'm so glad the pain is no longer there. I feel so much better. I did it without anyone's help and I'm proud of myself for being strong all this while. But letting him go does not mean I wanna give another shot in love though. Going solo is waaaay better and my heart kinda needs a break from all these useless feelings. As for now, I'm just gonna focus on my studies and make sure I'm happy so I can make others happy. I just feel like there's tons of other stuff I need to focus on instead of being in love with someone. I dont think it is necessary for now. So, another semester is coming. Am I ready? Tbh, no but I'll do my best for the sake of my family. Have fun guys! xoxo